*WE LOVE EACH OTHER*
Someone who knows how to have lots of fun, and when times get rough, won't run. Though I've searched the world looking for you, my friendship wishes finally came true. I FOUND YOU!
Someone who knows how to have lots of fun, and when times get rough, won't run. Though I've searched the world looking for you, my friendship wishes finally came true. I FOUND YOU!
o.o >> this was exactly how I looked when I stepped into my first ever Deepavali party. A fountain greeted me as I got wet from head to toe upon entering the party. The first thing I noticed was the extremely loud music. When I said extremely I meant it. It was loud and banging on my eardrums continously I felt like screaming at it to stop. I retained composure, balanced on my heels and entered the house. Jeeva welcomed us with open arms *literally* Oops =X Forgot to intro. Jeeva, is my tuition friend who invited me to the Deepavali party. It was certainly not like any Deepavali party I've expected. I expected a religious, normal dinner party that does not involve a stereo nor loads of boys o.o
So I entered the house together with my other tuition friend, Shaun. *erhem* So then I was a bit blur but amazed at the same time at the DEEJAY/DJ who was commanding the attention of everyone with his awesomely mixed songs and awesomely small but LOUD stereos. I was about to get a headache soon from too much song expsoure and the beating against my eardrums when the DJ looked over at me and waved a thumbs up. I was like o.o After that, we went up to Jeeva's comp corridor =.=" Over there, I was introduced to Jeeva's friends. At first, they were owhkay... kind and not that scary. But then...
Jeeva's Friends: Hey do you smoke?
Me: Huh?
JF: Do you smoke?
Me: Urm... no?
JF: Really? Prove it!
Me: Urm... how?
JF: Stick out your tongue.
Me: What? No!
JF: Aww cmon...
Me: *appalled* -pause- *sighs and looks away*
Things got better when Jeeva's sister approached me.
Jeeva's Sister: Hey who's this? *talking to Shaun*
Shaun: Oh friend.
JS: Your girlfriend la?
Shaun: No la...
Me: I'm Jeeva's tuition friend.
JS: Oh! Okay do you know how to dance?
Me: Urm... no?
JS: Well you're gonna dance. I'll teach you.
Me: *distressed* *gaps*
JS: *walks into her room*
I was left absolutely distressed and thankful that my sis was going to take me at 7. After a few minutes, Jeeva told us to go down coz the party is downstairs. So, Shaun, Shim *tuition fren* and I went down to continue playing cards (we were bored) Shim said he wanted to go take cards. His house was just nearby so Shaun and I followed. I was forced to walk through 4 sofas full of boys staring at me. Up until now I'm not sure why they were staring me. It's probably because
A) I so do not belong there
B) I'm decent looking? =.="
C) I have something on my face that might attract terrible attention
Anyways, so I felt soso uncomfortable as I walked pass them and Shim took the cards. Then we went back to the house and I had to walk through it again. We played cards in the kitchen and soon enough it was 7. I was super glad as I already had a vivid image painted in my mind of me dancing to Shakira's Hips Don't Lie. Must admit though, the DJ thing was awesome. But still. I was uber super glad that I'm going home.
I feel like a virgin to Peejay/PJ parties. Are all parties here like this? I don't think dancing will ever be my thing thanks =.=" Owh well... maybe one day I'll get used to it? *omg* Hahaks!
Cheers.
I'm bored
I'm so bored
I'm so freaking bored
Owh for crying out loud someone save me!
Voila I'm here once again. I've been posting a lot due to severe boredom.
-speechless-
I've got nothing to blog about! AHH!
My sis is back from college. My parents are off to a trip to Langkawi in another 4 hours or so. I'm serious. Their leaving at 3 am. Not on a plane. By car. Don't ask me how they could accomplish that impossible task but thank the GOD above that I don't have to go! I don't wanna wake up at 3 am and sit in a car and go to some teluk intan something. I'll prefer to stay at home with an internet connection and almost utter freedom for the next 3 days and 2 nights. Thank you.
-speechless again-
AHH! I need something to entertain me!
*oops* dad's awake. I woke him up =X it's not my fault I enjoy hearing music with the speaker up high! daddy reason with me! =(
-being scolded-
AHH! It is soooo not my fault!
-sighs-
I've just organized my "My Lyrics" folder. I've got some nice catch phrases from them...
Started out so innocently
-Crash World by Hilary Duff-
I've always been taught to win
I never thought I'd fall
-I Wanna Love You Forever by Jessica Simpson-
Hold on to, on to your innocence
Stand your ground when everybody's givin' in
-This One's For The Girls by Martina McBride-
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
-Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol-
So I wait for fate to find me
A ball of string unwind me
Uncomfortable as a centerfold
-When It Comes by Tyler Hilton-
I've been praying that
Someone like you would rescue me
-One In This World by Haylie Duff-
No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me
Seems like you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst, I'm best with you
-Friends Theme Song-
I'm not afraid to fall
It means I climbed up high
To fail is not to fall
You fail when you don't try
I'm not afraid to fall
I might just learn to fly
And I will spread these wings of mine
-Get Up by Superchick-
If you feel lost, and on your own
And far from home, your never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The one's who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home
-Your Heart Will Lead You Home by Kenny Loggins-
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
-Speechless by The Veronicas-
Cheers XD
It's the festive season once again. And voila i'm here once again blogging =.=" Happy Deepavali by the way everyone. The huge fireworks display yesterday was awesome especially from my balcony view. After watching the fireworks, reminiscing on the days that fireworks used to amaze me since I don't see them often, I went back to my comp and grew sad =.= Festive Seasons are suppose to be happy times. A promising start to a promising new year. But I've lost all faith on having a promising year.
At the start of this year, I saw the hugest fireworks display from the view of my balcony and I was clearly amazed. it was beautiful and somehow so far from reach. As it banged into the atmosphere, it felt somehow wrong for me to be standing there in my balcony in a different house with different people. And somehow memories of how i celebrated my 2005 new year came back. It was the tsunami year and us Malaysians had to mourn instead of celebrating the
great new year. So as usual, my family and I went to a party in a club (where my dad plays golf) and I remembered how I anticipated the night to be a really boring. I sat there at the usual table knowing I won't have anything to look forward to because there won't even be fireworks. But then a friend, a really nice friend that i used to have a crush on went through the whole night with me. We talked and I had so much fun. By the time 11 pm rolled around my dad was kinda drunk and i was having so much fun as he twirled me around and dance (omg my dad danced!) By the time new year rolled around, I was so happy even though there was no fireworks.
But that was last year. This year, I watched the largest firework display i could ever hope for in the balcony of my room with a bunch of friends that I don't really know and felt empty. Chinese New Year, I watched another display of fireworks, kissed my mom Happy Chinese New Year and went to sleep. My Birthday, my new friends forgotten my birthday, i spent a shyt-y day with my sister's friends feeling like an idiot while walking behind them in sungei wang and i ate my favorite cake but wanted to cry.
I'm determined however, to change it. No more terrible new years.. no more terrible Chinese New Year.. no more terrible Birthday. I'm gonna be happy for 2007. I'm gonna be happy the next time any festive seasons rolls around for 2007. But for the meantime, I'll just mourn one last time. Mourn one last time for what could've been and for what couldn't. Mourn one last time for all that I've lost and for all that will be lost. Stay tune.
Cheers. =X
A writer is faced with a blank page every day in life. Starting from scratch, a writer plays out her ideas and applies it on the blank page. Through writing they express their thoughts. Truth is conveyed from the mind to the paper in an effort to spread the word and to spread the knowledge. It is with a single word that one can cover so much more than a word. For example the word love, hope, faith and tears. And as writers, we celebrate the power of these words. Through these words I am who I am today.
Alright so all of you must be wondering what the crap am I talking bout but I'm talking serious here so bare with me! I'm erm gonna be honest after months and months of weird questions that friends seem to enjoy asking me. Do you like Tawau or Peejay better?
In this pic, me, Phebz and Lee are wayh happy. I mean look at us, we look like we're in a friggin picnic on a friggin rock and we were having fun. I've got to admit those days were fun. I mean here we can barely see anything resembling a beach. I've been stuck in this place for the past 10 months with the only inviting scenery which is the mountains at the back of the condo and the occasional trips to Port Dickson where there is beach. And as much as I have complained how this is hell and it's sux to be stuck here but there's just one tiny little white lie there. I'm enjoying myself here. I seriously am. And I cant imagine if i have to go back to tawau now. It's not like I'm saying I don't wanna go back to Tawau anymore.. I just can't imagine going back there. I've changed and people changed along with me. I've grown attached to my life here in Peejay and I'm no longer regretting anymore. I've got nice friends and I feel happy.. for the first time in 10 months I feel blessed.
So to those who are still wondering over that question.. hope that answered you.
I've been in good spirits these days. Other than the constant thinking i seemed to be always doing these days I've been splendid simply fine. In fact I've been more than fine but the information on why I am more than fine will be not revealed ;p I've been getting quite good results. All the papers I've gotten back so far have gotten A's (in my school 80-100 is an A) and I'm happy =) but not happy enough because there are other people who are getting wayh better results than me. Owh well... I hope I'll do great this time and get top 10. Pray for me all of you my darlings =)
Can't you believe how time flies? I mean it's already October approaching November and soon the year will come to an end and 2007 is coming. Owh and PMR is coming too =.=" I know it's too soon to think but I can't help but feel a little nervous. Alright shall not discuss about this further =\ Anyways this year I didn't have such a festive year so I'm determined to make it better next year. Although it's the important year I'm gonna dedicate myself to have fun!
Boo I'm bored. Update next time *F3*
Cheers.
Bethany Joy Lenz - Halo
OST One Tree Hill
I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there’d be sunshine every day
I’ll give you everything I have
The good the bad
Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below me
So help me down you’ve got it wrong
I don’t belong there
Chorus:
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh oh I, I just want to love you
I always said that I would make mistakes
I’m only human and that’s my saving grace
I’ll fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
So pull me from that pedestal
I don’t belong there
[Chorus]
Like to think that you know me
But in your eyes
I am something above me
That's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a, I wear a, I wear a Halo
[Chorus]
(I just wanna love you)
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Ride For You
Danity Kane
[Verse 1 - Aundrea]
Lately, I've been tryna fight whatever's pulling us under
it's got a hold and really making me wonder
what it takes to get through
I gotta stick with you, my baby
Baby tell me:
Maybe I'm foolishly overreacting
But being without you I can't imagine
It's just to close to the heart and
And I won't stand it if were broken apart
[Chorus - Group]
Do you hear me?
Baby ya gotta believe in the things that make you & me win together
Don't you throw in the towel
I'm keeping my promise to you I got ya back now
When the chips are down
It seems like it's so hard for you to move ahead
Just know that I am by your side
There aint no ifs, buts, or maybes,
I'm gonna stay down and ride for you baby
[Verse 2 - Dawn]
We've been cutting it close with the backwards & forwards
It's rocking the boat; we gotta get control of this
Let's take it back to three years ago
When you said that we could make it through whatever, ever
And to me it sounded like you meant forever, ever
Leaving was not an option, baby, never, never
Now don't you believe in a love that's worth a fight
In you is everything that I'm missing
So give us a chance
[Chorus]
[Verse 3 - D. Woods]
Don't you dare tell me we gotta let it go...
We been on top for too long just to let it go under
I don't wanna hear that
I just can't hear that
and know
Wherever you wanna take me
I'll go
I been with you for too long to start over with another
I know that you hear me
Just tell me you hear me
[Chorus- w/ ad-libs (D. Woods)]
[Outro Ad Libs]
Current listenings =)
p/s: writing a long blog entry so bare with me.
Cheers.
Yesterday was great! it was haze free and everyone was having fun spending the time outside and partly convinced that the haze is gone for good! But noo.. it's back once again to haunt us. The haze is worse than ever and once again people find themselves stuck at home around those four walls. And i'm bored. =D wee no suprise there but yeah i am indeed bored once again and so I am here to blog about the haze!
hihi bbFF... sory coz i reli reli long time didnt post anything..keke.. i noe i always say tat -.- my life seems to be ok these few months.. i get used with my usual routine in skul now without bbFF.. sobz.. i cant believe i m still here, online!! its exam.... haiz.. i think i gonna get reli reli bad results this time.. coz i didnt reli study tat hard and i afraid i even drop! anyway, gud luck to my frens.... phebz, ber, gud luck!! at the same time, its also "his" birthday... u noe who***** its tis wednesday!! and i dun hav any idea wat to buy for him... haiz... its exam also, cant even go shop... i afraid he will be pissed at me also.... coz i didnt get anything for him... wat shud i do? T.T
and chruch is having a choir for christmas... mary and phebz are joining!! u guys are so lucky.. i wish i can join too... but i think my mum will not let me.. haiz.. "u noe her"... T.T i gtg... its reli late now.... bubye! nitez.. gud luck in exams!!
love,
lili ^^
Owhkay i wanted to post these poems in the welcome page and the etc page.. but the blog skin had to screw it up so i decided to post it here! I shall gain my satisfaction shush~! anyways here they are:
How do I began describing you,
You’re perfect in every way,
You complete me and my life,
Seemed better since you arrived.
You never gave up on my hopes,
You made me believe miracles might be out there,
You’re my shoulder to lean on,
In times of hardship and sorrow.
You’re confident in your own way,
You’re never shameful of anything you lack,
You stand up tall and never let pride get in your way,
One of the things that keeps me going on.
You're my friend,
And not just any friend,
We'll be friends forever. =)
-Written by Bernice-
2005
=D Another one some more haha
Rainbows and stars,
Reminds me of you,
A person so strong in the outside,
Yet so vulnerable in the inside,
Out there to seek somebody’s love,
Never giving up hope, never deny
That one day life would change,
And happiness would greet you,
With open arms and a smile,
And your past, would be your past.
Dark clouds and rain,
Reminds me of you,
A person who tries so hard not to fall,
Yet falls with regret,
Tries to smile and hide the pain,
It reminds me of how much I knew you,
How much I wished situations were different,
And wishing the rain would stop.
Sticks and stones,
Reminds me of you,
A person so plain,
That could set a fire,
A special heart that no one sees,
Waiting to burst open,
Revealing the true me,
No more pretending.
-Urstruly-
2005
Okie the first poem was inspired by my shifting apparently. I started writing a lot of poems before and after my shifting. So that's one of the many many poems hidden in my *secret* folder in my computer =P The second poem was inspired by my own self.. cause i was at a self realising mood the time i wrote the poem so i wrote it about being a misfit sometimes and learning to love yourself =D
Enjoy =D
Cheers.
Baba *Bernice* Ali *Lee Lee* AA *Phoebe* Gaby *Gabriel*
~ We Absolutely Adore ~EACH OTHER! Our crazy darlings~ kipas deserves special mention here =P We adore being ourself no? =D
~ We DESPISE... ~Lots. bithces, fags, (even though we're them, but HECK, we hate b & f's)
~ We Want ~the past year to possibly turn back time and to stay true to our promise which is FOREVER =)
* ^^. did we mention tat we love each other? MUAKZ * -urstruly =)-